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Dietary Changes Part: 2

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  When I was in high school, during my second year, I found myself eating more fried foods and drinking more milk than usual. I thought it was okay, not the healthiest, but what school provides healthy food? They love promoting it, but they don’t necessarily enforce it. Everyone was fine eating it, so what could go wrong? I was eating spicy fried chicken sandwiches and cheese-stuffed pizza, and I learned that dipping them in ranch or blue cheese tasted good. I drink chocolate milk, and on Fridays, I treat myself to ice cream. The year before was exciting, my grades were great, and everything seemed new and exciting. Sophomore year became the opposite. I didn’t understand why, but it was like flipping a coin. Everything was exciting, but everything was boring; topics were not interesting, the teachers were even pissy and annoyingly difficult. On top of everything I was dragging. I felt so fogged up. As if I could sleep all day. My case manager saw what was going on with my cla...
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To be or not to be Autistic

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  To be or not to be autistic, is the question. I know, I just went Shakespearean on all of you. There are many wanted and unwanted desires of people wishing to be or not to be autistic. I have come across a few people that speculate that they are autistic simply because they feel awkward about themselves and want a logical explanation, and feel that placing themselves on the spectrum is good enough of an explanation. Some claim to have the symptoms for themselves that are or aren't subtle and wonder if should I consider the possibility. Some are autistic but have just never been diagnosed and question why am I the way I am. I even come across parents who want to place their children on the spectrum just because they want them to be special. The desire to be autistic is tragic to me. It's like Macbeth killing King Duncan, just to become king himself but finds himself losing his mind out of paranoia and guilt instead of what he thought would be bliss. You are going to d...
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Brain Fog

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  In my last post, I talked about having to deal with a fogged-up mind, static thoughts, and feeling disconnected from socializing with others. Want to connect with people while having no idea how to open up to others. In this post, I'm going to talk about one of the major things that helped me open up to others and be able to become more social other than horseback riding. The summer just before my soft-more year of high school I stayed with my Grandmother for a couple of weeks in Tennessee. During my stay, I was provided with southern food (comfort food, as they called it), more than what I was used to, along with a glass of milk with every breakfast. Beforehand I didn't drink much milk, but for some odd reason, this new routine got me to drink more milk and eat more yogurt. My Mother didn't think much of it, she was pleased that I started doing this, since milk is healthy for you after all. For years my Mother tried to get me to gain weight since throughout my en...
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Living in My Own World

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       I ask that you keep an open mind. This is one of those things that is difficult for me to explain and open up to others. It's one of those things where I've tried to explain and get nothing but confused looks or reactions from family and friends, or accused of being simply crazy from others. Originally I wanted to do a podcast but then reminded myself how much of a difficult time I have verbally explaining things to people whether it's because it just sounds bizarre, and someone will ridicule me for it simply because I'm very literal and they take it the wrong way or don't understand and their response doesn't make sense and throws me off. For example, I was in Atlanta one night working on a film project, and down the road across the street I noticed what looked like a woman walking down the sidewalk and then out of no were stops and just starts dancing. It was so random to me that I had to tell someone about it. So I told one of my coworkers wandering w...
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Short visit to Maryland

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I apologize for not posting last week. Let's just say I ran like a hobbit and went on an adventure. I went to Maryland for a wedding and a short vacation.  Here are some photos of the places that I had the pleasure of visiting. Some of these photos will be available for purchasing fairly soon on: https://www.naturallynaturephotography.com/ An update is currently happening. Also please feel free to leave comments on my blog. Another will be coming soon.       Maryland was wonderful. My husband and I went for only half a week but got to see so many things in this short time. We took a tour on a few ships such as the one shown below. This was located in the city of Baltimore along with Fort McHenry where we won the revolution and the inspiration for a song that moves the heart of the United States. You know the one; it begins with "Oh say can you see".      We also went to Washington D.C. for a day. May I say visiting D.C. is more than...
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The Power of Acceptance

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  First of all, it's not easy for me to talk about autism. I feel vulnerable whenever I talk about it, and I never know how someone may react to it. Writing this blog, or my book even intimidates the hell out of me. It took me a long time to get comfortable in my own skin. It's not just learning that you have another disability up your butt, but the biggest thing is excepting it for yourself, and doing the research while dealing with discrimination, stereotypes, and overall ignorance. It's kind of ironic since I lived with, and grew out of some health conditions that can become life-threatening, and yet when I get diagnosed with a social disorder is when people start telling me what I am incapable of doing such as graduating high school with a diploma or getting married. One thing that I have learned in life is that for whatever reason people love to make people feel like crap just because they most likely feel like crap themselves or they're just that closed-minde...
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About Myself

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  Here is a little of my background. I am writing an autobiography, so I'm going to keep this short and sweet if you don't mind. I was diagnosed with autism when I was 13-14 years old. It's a late age to find out I know, but growing up my parents and I went through a lot with me. I was born in the early 90s in Germany, then came over to the USA when I was only one year old. Starting from the day I was born, I suffered from health conditions starting with  Hydrocephalus and seizures. Because of this, I went through brain surgery three times in my life so far. Three too many, if you ask me. As for the seizures, they were just staring spells, but I had to go through EEG ( Electroencephalography) because of them. An EEG scans your brain activity to see if there is anything abnormal, such as seizures. They were fun to do because I got to stay up all night and sleep during the appointment while they attached this computer to my head. There was this one time I had to wear it for a...
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My Introduction!

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Hi, my name is Lena, and welcome to “I'm Autistic! So What!” In this blog, I will talk about the big elephant in the room that has been weighing on your shoulders, whether it's because you or someone in your family or friends are autistic. It's a huge can of worms that I'm just going to bust open and go through it hoping to help you understand it more. Right now you might think, what on earth does this woman know about autism? They diagnosed me with autism when I was 14 years old and I've been researching my condition ever since. You're probably wondering why did you wait so long to find out? Well, I'd like to tell you about that another time. To tell you the truth, I can not give you a step-by-step on how to treat or handle autism. There is simply no such thing, because autism lies on a spectrum, as it's different for everyone. So if you're looking for a step-by-step, then I respectfully as that you change your approach to learning about it. Even th...
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