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Out with the old, In with the new!

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  I apologize for being away for a while. You know about that desired change I wrote about. Well, a lot has happened during the past few months. It all started in February when a best friend called me about a job opportunity as a day porter paying $24 an hour with a corporate office company. Instead of working a scattered schedule and fighting to get more hours, I now work full-time with full benefits and a steady schedule. All I do is make coffee for scheduled conferences and all the break rooms, along with keeping track of the supplies. I work Monday through Friday 7-4 and having that as part of my routine feels great. The people that I work with are great too. Everyone talks to me and not to me. I also have the freedom to work on whatever task I need to without people asking me what I am doing unless they are being social with me. No one is pestering me. Also, my boss is great and easy to talk to. I no longer feel uneasy whenever my boss calls upon me. When she does it's mainly
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Autism Girls

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  Growing up, one of the main things that people kept telling me is how Autism is more common in boys than girls. For a very long time I believed this. It even made me feel special like I am rare human being for being a girl with autism. As if I became fated to make a statement. As time went by, to my relief, I learn that autism isn't more common in boys then girls. It's just perceived differently. Autism was first identified in boys during WWII by Hans Asperger. Little did he know that autism shows up different in girls then boys, but he had a sticky situation to deal with during the war at the start of his studies. So lets forgive him. One has to start somewhere somehow. Whether we like it or not, women and men are programmed differently. Boys are more task oriented, as they are more likely to focus on a single task over multitasking and focus on the major details. Girls are more detailed oriented, and are generally more interested in the fine detail of things,
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Change

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  Change is inevitable it is also the one thing that a lot of Autistics don't like. A lot of people on the spectrum are routine-oriented. Whether we plan to be so or not. My grandmother would say, “Lena you are so predictable”; I would argue back, “No I'm not”. I hated being predictable. And didn't want to be so. But it was true. Whenever I went to visit her I would often go to the barn and back to the house like clockwork. To my defense I was bored. I didn't have much to do other than listen to music in the barn while cleaning the stalls and going back to get a drink and eat. But I loved being around horses so therefore I didn't care. For years I would say that the only thing that we would need to know about me is that I love reading books and being around horses. Give me a reading nook in a horse barn and I would be in heaven. You would never see me. I would gladly sit there reading to my horses. Unfortunately, I didn't always have a book with me, so I
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Germany Trip 2023

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  I have to admit that I am in quite a funk. I don't know what it is... You may have noticed that I have not been posting as much. Not that I don't want to... I used to talk about my blog a lot with Morgan. With him passing away so suddenly it threw me off my course with this blog. I assure you am still here and I am still posting. On the bright side, Germany was amazing! Frankie and I took a lot of photos. Some of them I will be selling at: https://www.naturallynaturephotography.com . I realize that I spoke about this half a year ago and I thank you for your patience. If I say so myself, my photos make a great gift for any occasion. We went to Germany to visit my family after not being able to see them for five years. Too long of a wait. It's always great seeing how much my family has grown and still is. Just recently this year I had two new cousins come into this exciting world.  During our time in Germany, we celebrated my sister's and brother-in-l
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The Girl in the Mirror

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  The Girl in the Mirror Joe walks out of the house while her mother is screaming at her from inside the house. “You fucking dumb ass, how dare you burn my breakfast....That’s right you’d better leave, and don’t ever come back you retard...”. Joe, no longer fazed by her mother's berating, goes for a walk through town. With her dropping out of school her new routine became quite simple with spending about five hours in the library reading and then later on grabbing something to eat from the dinner. Unfazed by the people staring at her she continued on walking. On the other side of town, she comes across some abandoned houses. One of them is a plantation house that looked like it had been there the longest, possibly built in the 17th century based on the architecture. Intrigued, she attempts to go inside. At first, the door wouldn't budge. It was either jammed or locked but Joe had to give it one more push. This time she put her shoulder into it, knocking it right op
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My Dear Freind

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  Originally, I had planned to share stories about my trip. My trip was amazing, and it was wonderful to reunite with my family. I hope I don't have to wait another seven years to visit. Who knows how much time we have on this planet. This post does not directly discuss autism. If you're interested in learning about autism, please refer to my previous posts or find a reputable book on the subject. You can find a book recommendation in my previous post. Instead, I will discuss a close friend of mine. His name is Morgan Griffin. I met him during a shift, either during closing or opening... He worked overnight, so I would see him in the morning at 6 am as I arrived and he departed. This would also occur whenever I worked the closing shift in my department. Initially, we were aware of each other's presence but occupied with our individual tasks. As time passed, our responsibilities started to overlap, leading to increased communication between us. He stocked products on the
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